{"id":3485,"date":"2010-01-13T00:00:00","date_gmt":"2010-01-13T00:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/healingheartsofindy.com\/yesterday-a-boy-today-a-man\/"},"modified":"2020-05-11T20:48:43","modified_gmt":"2020-05-11T20:48:43","slug":"yesterday-a-boy-today-a-man","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/healingheartsofindy.com\/yesterday-a-boy-today-a-man\/","title":{"rendered":"Yesterday a Boy, Today a Man"},"content":{"rendered":"
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\"\"Memories of the little boy<\/h4>\n
The other night I dreamt of myself playing with my 2 year old son. He was pudgy and playful and so positively gleeful<\/em>. His little cheeks were pink from playing so hard. The dream left me with a warm and wonderful feeling in my heart. I was smiling from\u00a0the inside with the sheer joy it gave me to hold his hands while he lifted his feet in the air and giggled like little boys do. He was exactly where he wanted to be at that moment. So was I.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n

That boy, now a young man<\/h4>\n

He\u2019s not 2 anymore; he\u2019s 18 and a senior in high school. He has his own friends, his own job and his own interests. He\u2019s a man; an\u00a0incredible, wonderful and talented young man and I feel so blessed to call him my son. This is the season in my life where I begin to grieve the loss of the boy and transition into the new phase of motherhood. I must accept that our relationship is different going forward.<\/p>\n

Life’s journey<\/h4>\n

In many ways, this reminds me of God\u2019s role in my life. Like a good father would, He watches me. He doesn\u2019t necessarily tell <\/em>me what to do, but has provided vague guidelines. I must go out into the world and find the boundaries myself. And when I\u2019ve strayed down a road that isn\u2019t good for me, He is always there for me when I decide to come running back into his waiting arms. He doesn\u2019t chastise me, He doesn\u2019t shame me, He just loves me.<\/p>\n

Unconditional Love<\/h4>\n

Seeing my son at this point in his life, I think I understand how God could love us so unconditionally. I will always love the boy that I carried inside of me, the one I laughed and played with, the one who brought me so much joy singing and playing his guitar. I look at him much like God looks at us. Know he will make mistakes and do things I don\u2019t agree with.\u00a0 Also knowing his life won\u2019t go exactly like I would map it, but I will love him and accept him no matter what, just because he is my son.<\/p>\n

I pray that we all get to experience God\u2019s unconditional love this fully; both on earth and in heaven.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Memories of the little boy The other night I dreamt of myself playing with my 2 year old son. He was pudgy and playful and so positively gleeful. His little cheeks were pink from playing so hard. The dream left me with a warm and wonderful feeling in my heart. I was smiling from\u00a0the inside […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":7,"featured_media":3486,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":"","inline_featured_image":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[19,36,38,1],"tags":[396,415,416,417,418,419,420,421,422,50,423],"class_list":["post-3485","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-abandonment","category-self-help","category-shame","category-uncategorized","tag-divorce","tag-god","tag-gods-love","tag-hardship","tag-motherhood","tag-parenting","tag-recovery","tag-trauma","tag-trials","tag-uncategorized","tag-unconditional-love"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/healingheartsofindy.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3485","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/healingheartsofindy.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/healingheartsofindy.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/healingheartsofindy.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/7"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/healingheartsofindy.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3485"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/healingheartsofindy.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3485\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3512,"href":"https:\/\/healingheartsofindy.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3485\/revisions\/3512"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/healingheartsofindy.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/3486"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/healingheartsofindy.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3485"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/healingheartsofindy.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3485"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/healingheartsofindy.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3485"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}